abjekt tala

Här ordsätter jag fragment av den översatta, avlyssnade, genomlevda och levrade rösten från platsen mellan, från det trinitäras terräng. Området mellan subjektets inhägnad och objektets bårhus.
Och återger terrängens (klyftans) litterära speglingar och vindlande spår.




She hungered for a different story - one to respell the world she knew




Fotnavlad

Fotnavlad
What we seek is love itself, revealed now and again in human form, but pushing us beyond our humanity into animal instinct and god-like success. There is no love that does not pierce the hands and feet... Jeanette Winterson. Love, the deadly wound from which my life slowly bleeds, there I am preserved ...Birgitta Trotzig

tisdag 11 maj 2021

Dance to the crone-logically new moon

 Poetry In Motion


Stitchling with threads from the area around the Trogyllium strait between the greek island of Samos and Turkey, where Sibyls used to draw songlines along the shorelines and the Nymphs were busy.

Song relining crossover:

La Mariposa, Butterfly Woman 
Clarissa Pinkola Estes (excerpt from Women Who Run With The Wolves)

"For years tourists have come to Puyé, a big dusty mesa in the middle of 'nowhere', New Mexico. Here the Anasazi, the ancient ones, once called to each other across the mesas. A prehistoric sea, it is said, carved the thousand of grinning, leering, and moaning mouths and eyes into the rock walls there.

…To the visitors, a butterfly is a delicate thing. “O fragile beauty,” they dream. So they are necessarily shaken when out hops Maria Lujan. And she is big, really big, like the Venus of Willendorf, like the Mother of Days, like Diego Rivera’s heroic-size woman who built Mexico City with a single curl of her wrist.

And Maria Lujan, oh, she is old, very, very old, like a woman come back from dust, old like old river, old like old pines at timberline. One of her shoulders is bare. Her red-and-black manta, blanket dress, hops up and down with her inside it. Her heavy body and her very skinny legs made her look like a hopping spider wrapped in a tamale. She hops on one foot and then on the other. She waves her feather fan to and fro. She is The Butterfly arrived to strengthen the weak.

She is that which most think of as not strong: age, the butterfly, the feminine. Butterfly Maiden’s hair reaches to the ground. It is thick as ten maize sheaves and it is stone gray. And she wears butterfly wings-the kind you see on little children who are being angels in school plays. Her hips are like two bouncing bushel baskets and the fleshy shelf at the top of her buttocks is wide enough to ride two children. She hops, hops, hops, not like a rabbit, but in footsteps that leave echoes.

'I am here, here, here…
I am here, here, here…
Awaken you, you, you!'

She sways her feather fan up and down, spreading the earth and the people of the earth with the pollinating spirit of the butterfly. Her shell bracelets rattle like snakes, her bell garters tinkle like rain. Her shadow with its big belly and little legs dances from one side of the dance circle to the other. Her feet leave little puffs of dust behind.

The tribes are reverent, involved. But some visitors look at each other and murmur “This is it? This is the Butterfly Maiden?” They are puzzled, some even disillusioned. They no longer seem to remember that the spirit world is a place where wolves are women, bears are husbands, and old women of lavish dimensions are butterflies.

Yes, it is fitting that Wild Woman/Butterfly Woman is old and substantial, for she carries the thunder world in one breast, the underworld in the other. Her back is the curve of the planet Earth with all its crops and foods and animals. The back of her neck carries the sunrise and the sunset. Her left thigh holds all the lodge poles, her right thigh all the she-wolves of the world. Her belly holds all the babies that will ever be born.

Butterfly Maiden is the female fertilizing force. Carrying the pollen from one place to another, she cross-fertilizes, just as the soul fertilizes mind with night dreams, just as archetypes fertilize the mundane world. She is the centre. She brings the opposites together by taking a little from here and putting it there. Transformation is no more complicated that that. This is what she teaches. This is how the butterfly does it. This is how the soul does it.

Butterfly Woman mends the erroneous idea that transformation is only for the tortured, the saintly, or only for the fabulously strong. The Self need not carry mountains to transform. A little is enough. A little goes a long way. A little changes much. The fertilizing force replaces the moving of mountains. Butterfly Maiden pollinates the souls of the earth: It is easier that you think, she says.

She is shaking her feather fan, and she’s hopping, for she is spilling spiritual pollen all over the people who are there, Native Americans, little children, visitors, everyone. She is using her entire body as a blessing, her old, frail, big, short-legged, short-necked, spotted body. This is woman connected to her wild nature, the translator of the instinctual, the fertilizing force, the mender, the rememberer of old ideas. She is La voz mitológica. She is wild woman personified.

The butterfly dancer must be old because she represents the soul that is old. She is wide of thigh and broad of rump because she carries much. Her grey hair certifies that she need no longer observe taboos about touching others. She is allowed to touch everyone: boys, babies, men, women, girl children, the old, the ill, and the dead. The Butterfly Woman can touch everyone. It is her privilege to touch all, at last. This is her power. Hers is the body of La Mariposa, the butterfly.

Song relining crossover:
Out in New Mexico, Heather Nova

I picture a road out in New Mexico
Red earth and mountains and sky
I picture my soul out in New Mexico
With all that space rolling by
...
Sometimes I long for the rose to bleed
For the spark to light in the depths of me
...
With all that earth rolling by
With all these dreams rolling by









måndag 10 maj 2021

Dark moon gift giving

  
 
            
                                                                            
To Bring You My Love





THE Stitchling
Artemis, Queen Bee of Ephesus



 


Brings her love



I was borne in the desert
I been down for years
Jesus, come closer
I think my time is near

And I've traveled over
Dry earth and floods
hell and high water
To bring you my love

Climbed over mountains
Travelled the sea
Cast down off heaven
Cast down on my knees
I've laid with the devil
Cursed god above
Forsaken heaven
To bring you my love

To bring you my love



lördag 8 maj 2021

Keep confluencing mercy




            dancing
            confluencing                            

            the gestalt
            THE beloved

            facet eyed
            through






When you're kneeling through the hours,
And you're doubting your given powers,
And when you're ready for her mercy,
And you're worthy,
It will come
...
Well, there's sugar on the old spoon,
Let's do that two-step around your front room,
And when you're ready for her mercy,
And you're worthy,
It will come
...
Mercy, mercy, coming to you
Feel her beauty flowing through you -
She will unbind you, set the word free.
Mercy, Mercy

Glen Hansrad, Her Mercy


Kali, be with us.
Violence, destruction, receive our homage.
Help us to bring darkness into the light,
To lift out the pain, the anger,
Where it can be seen for what it is;
The balance-wheel for our vulnerable, aching love
Put the wild hunger where it belongs,
Within the act of creation,
Crude power that forges a balance
Between hate and love

Help us to be the always hopeful,
Garderners ...

Bear the roots in mind,
You, the dark one, Kali
Awesome power.

May Sarton, from The Invocation to Kali
 The poem


torsdag 6 maj 2021

Keep blending into, out of earth

sister earth

ma soeur, ma semblable,
these words I read beneath this picture of a scull found by the Tower of Jericho, which is a stone  structure built around 8000 BCE in Israel.

my Fore-Sister, my Fore-Crone

In the late 1980s I went there.
Much later in 2019  I stiched this into being


This Earth: What She Is to Me
by Susan Griffin

As I go into her, she pierces my heart. As I penetrate 
further, she unveils me. When I have reached her center,
I am weeping openly. I have known her all my life, yet
she reveals stories to me, and these stories are revelations
and I am transformed. Each time I go to her I am born
like this. Her renewal washes over me endlessly, her
wounds caress me; I become aware of all that has come
between us, of the noice between us. Now my body reaches
out to her. They speak effortlessly, and I learn at no
instant does she fail me in her presence. She is as delicate
as I am, I know her sentience; I feel her pain and my own
pain comes into me, and my own pain grows large and I
grasp this pain with my hands, and I open my mouth to
this pain, I taste, I know, and I know why she goes on,
under great weight, with this great thirst, in drought, in
starvation, with intelligence in every act does she survive
disaster. This earth is my sister; I love her daily grace,
her silent daring, and how loved I am how we admire this
strength in each other, all that we have lost, all that we have suffered,
all that we know, we are stunned by this beauty, and I do not
forget what she is to me, what I am to her.

You are my sister with Antony and the Johnsons

You are my sister
And I love you
May all of your dreams come true
...
I see it come






onsdag 5 maj 2021

Keep bleeding into the mystic

When all the colors bleed into one 

Love, the deadly wound from which my life slowly bleeds, there I am preserved
Birgitta Trotzig


Just beneath the thin layer of romanticizing love
a bigger You
a bigger Love
bleeding together into One


Closed off from love I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass, before you know it, you're frozen,
But something happened for the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground, found something true
And everyone's looking 'round thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

into the mystic
into the now
into

each
other
wise



onsdag 28 april 2021

dressmaking

 


fitting out the dress for the woman downstairs...
or all around
or flowing through
InVirgination
invagination
individuation



"I cermonially undress
For she who in my dreams reveals how she longs and she cares
I take off all my clothes
For the woman downstairs
...
In my dream I lay her on a blanket
Wild berries stain the fragile dress she wears
She can have my soul and keep it
The woman downstairs

I give her my ears and my eyes
I give her my future and my past
They're both full of questions and lies
..."




And rewatching The Dressmaker who knows how to use her spelling glamor...









söndag 18 april 2021

unpetrified horse

The decapitation of Medusa is one of the remythologized myths I have been living backbone to backbone with for more than 30 years. One of the offsprings of the decapitation was the horse Pegasus.
Here is the myth captured as a stitchling, a work of art much like an active icon, walkable, danceable ... thinkable through. 

Please note: no hero is present.




On a few occasions I have looked out over the islands below Erythrai in Turkey, home to the Erythraean Sibyl. The islands are said to be petrified horses. Today I think the freezing has been undone.

Now it is soon time to ride the horse out on green pasture. 


Art by Jake Baddeley


when she rides the wild horse
...